FORTITUDE

Assalamualaikum....

Fortitude - mental and emotional strength in facing difficulty, adversity, danger or temptation courageously.

Well I will start my writing today with life is not easy. One thing for sure, we will not always get what we want. I have to live my life as it is. Susah nak cakap. Saya dah cuba macam-macam. But what hurt me most is bila orang yang kita sayang tu tak appreciate kita.

Oklah biar saya jujur pada diri saya.

1) I am trying my level best to accept that to some people I am a nobody. No matter how hard I try.

2) I am trying to understand why to some, there is no appreciation.

3) I am trying to understand why just the only Love of My Life didn't understand me, after 6 years?

4) I am trying to understand why is it so difficult to find true love as I have given so much and only getting little in return. Not love I am looking for in return but appreciation.

So.. a decision.... I AM BUT A FRIEND...... then there will be no more FORTITUDE

Wassalam

MY LIFE

Assalamualaikum,

hmmm hopefully today is a good day. feel just like writting je. Nothing improtant but just want to write out what and how I feel. Weekend was good. Finally had a good rest. Alone still. Children are progressing, alhamdulillah.

Wen out drinking on Friday night with the bors and nieces. Nice place. The 1.4 is in. Alhamdulillah. Hopefully have same profitable year this year. As for the feelings.... well still the same.

Honestly kan....... perasaan saya malas................tu yang sebenarmya.

Wassalam.

I AM NOT BUT A FRIEND?

Assalamualaikum

For a while being issue of my life. Where does this stop? No where I guess. Malas aaahhh nak kena making point je... asyik kena marah pasal orang pun boring. This year is a good year for me, my daughter and hope for everybody else.

Been thinking... I think I will do some experiment this year. Will find a friend of my own and see the outcome. Saya nak cuba berkawan, tak kira lelaki ke perempuan but my condition is orang tu mesti single or single parents. Hmmm maybe should start look into facebook but I am not that kind of person lah. Dont believe in Social Networking... Nope nope nope...

Well wish me luck..... maybe I can find some kind of new experiance in this.

Wassalam